Thursday, March 31, 2005

Torn




I am undecided...
Where do I belong?
I am undecided...
Where will be my home?
I am undecided...
\: Show me the way :/
...To your heart.



[somewhere on the last Marshall&Alexander album, written by whoever]

Friday, March 18, 2005

Cursed



Creepy crawly horrid feelings
Cumulate inside of me.
Tense and clammy air revealing:
That curse shot up again with glee.

Sweaty pearls on forehead glisten,
Limbs and brain so dead and cold.
No more words - why would you listen
To anything you were not told.

Still my heart beats mad as stampede,
Not a clear thought left to think.
If that is love - tuck it in concrete,
Those hormones push me off the brink.

If only if... - If only I...
Would have a hint, a sign to catch,
A sigh, a look, a word, a song...
You could be in for perfect match.



Thursday, February 24, 2005

Die Besten erwischt es immer zuerst...





I know it's silly...
-Nostalgia and all that.
-But they make me hop about whenever I listen to any record.
-Goes straight from the ear into childhood-memory.
~ Neonatal Imprinting! ~

Commemorating Louis Hendrik Potgieter
(who died of AIDS in 1993)

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Kinsey






Okay...
-Progress down the drains.
-Back to the Middle Ages.
... but does it really have to be that no one knows about
Alfred KINSEY and his reports anymore.
I mean, where are we??? The sodding Vatican?

Tuesday, February 08, 2005


Oh, ich hasse HASSE hasse KARNEVAL!!!



Tuesday, February 01, 2005



Yet each man kills the thing he loves

By each let this be heard,

Some do it with a bitter look,

Some with a flattering word,

The coward does it with a kiss,

The brave man with a sword!


Some kill their love when they are young,

And some when they are old;

Some strangle with the hands of Lust,

Some with the hands of Gold:

The kindest use a knife, because

The dead so soon grow cold.


Some love too little, some too long,

Some sell, and others buy;

Some do the deed with many tears,

And some without a sigh:

For each man kills the thing he loves,

Yet each man does not die.

[Oscar Wilde]

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Yeuch!










So much for life shaping you down....

Had the tonsilitis of a lifetime.
After all, dying of fever was not what I had in mind
when I considered passing away in my sleep to be a nice option.


Makes you value life a bit more.

Monday, January 03, 2005

SINGING FOR THE LONELY


Shape up! Shape up! Shape up!
But it's sooo difficult if the world is constantly shaping you down.
Very frustrating that is.
Well, who would have thought that I ever felt in tune with
Robbie Williams...






Singing for the lonely
You're not the only ones who feel this
So scared of what I'm doing
All the time

Here comes wasted head-space
Paranoia
Anger, misplaced feelings
Leave me nowhere
All the time

I don't wake up early every morning
'Cause the more I sleep the less I have to say
Scared of you always thinking that I'm boring
Stop me yawning my life away

Tender young confusion
Send black mariah for blue delusions
Lays heavy oh so heavy
On my mind

I'm so sick of people's expectations
Leaves me tired all the time
If your home's full of useless aggravation
Then don't bring it to mine

I seem to spend my life
Just waiting for the chorus
'Cause the verse is never nearly
Good enough
The hooligan half of me
That steals from Woolworths
While the other lives for love

I'm so sick of people's expectations
Leaves me tired all the time
If your home's full of worthless aggravation
Then don't bring it to mine

Singing for the lonely
We're not the only ones who feel this
So scared of what I'm doing
All the time
Singing for the Lonely
We're not the only ones who feel this
Scared of what we're doing
All the time
[Robbie Williams]

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Gosh, it's sad in here, isn't it?


I think it's about time to "shape up".


Any drugs anyone?
Prozac maybe....


Sunday, December 26, 2004


Give me a hint with a hammer
Or give me a hit with a brick
Life is that dead old dilemma
Of chances unwilling to pick

In dark deep the shadows are trailing
Like pieces of sick cloth on string
A longing of mourning and wailing
When wet to your body they cling

Yet, I cannot give my soul in
Hand back that dead carcass of mine
Nothing to make me old heart sing
Has left heaven’s torment in time

Monday, December 20, 2004

Warum gerade ich?

Manchmal kann ich durch die Luft gehn

als ob sie sich vor mir verneigt

manchmal kann ich durch die Luft gehn

als ob sie mir den Ausweg zeigt

Dann wiederum wird mir der Kopf so schwer

als trüg ich eine Sprungschanze als Hut

dabei ist auf dem Schädel alles leer

dann geht es mir nicht gut

Warum gerade ich

warum gerade ich und nicht du

warum gerade ich

hört mir überhaupt noch irgendjemand zu

Manchmal kann ich durch die Luft gehn

als wär die Welt für mich gemacht

manchmal kann ich durch die Luft gehn

wie jemand der als letzter lacht

Warum gerade ich

warum gerade ich und nicht du

warum gerade ich

ich ersehne das Duell mit dem Tabu

hört mir überhaupt noch irgendjemand zu

Es gibt zwei drei Dinge wo ich keinen Spaß versteh

am schönsten ist es immer noch zuhaus

wär wohl besser wenn ich jetzt nachhause geh

da liefern sie nicht aus

Warum fragst du nicht

warum weißt du nicht was ich brauch

warum sagst du nichts

warum mag ich mich sobald ich untertauch

warum gerade ich

warum gerade ich und nicht du

warum gerade ich

ich ersehne das Duell mit dem Tabu

hört mir überhaupt noch irgendjemand zu

Dann wiederum fällt jede Tür ins Schloß

und unerhörte Härte kommt ins Spiel

dann heißt es wie du willst du bist der Boß

sonst bleibt mir nicht mehr viel

sonst bleibt mir nicht mehr viel

[Heinz-Rudolf Kunze]


X-Mas Horror




Why can't Christmas ever stay nice?

You're always looking forward to it, singing along....

And then - BANG - that stressful feeling hits you with a brick.

I am disappointed.

I want cookies!


Und man wird verdammt nochmal nicht krank nur weil man keine Puuuhschen trägt!!!
- Verfluchtes Sauerländer Pack -

Monday, December 13, 2004



DON’T THINK TWICE

It ain’t no use to sit and wonder why, babe
It don’t matter, anyhow
An’ it ain’t no use to sit and wonder why, babe
If you don’t know by now
When your rooster crows at the break of dawn
Look out your window and I’ll be gone
You’re the reason I’m trav’lin’ on
Don’t think twice, it’s all right
It ain’t no use in turnin’ on your light, babe
That light I never knowed
An’ it ain’t no use in turnin’ on your light, babe
I’m on the dark side of the road
Still I wish there was somethin’ you would do or say
To try and make me change my mind and stay
We never did too much talkin’ anyway
So don’t think twice, it’s all right
It ain’t no use in callin’ out my name, gal
Like you never did before
It ain’t no use in callin’ out my name, gal
I can’t hear you any more
I’m a-thinkin’ and a-wond’rin’ all the way down the road
I once loved a woman, a child I’m told
I give her my heart but she wanted my soul
But don’t think twice, it’s all right
I’m walkin’ down that long, lonesome road, babe
Where I’m bound, I can’t tell
But goodbye’s too good a word, gal
So I’ll just say fare thee well
I ain’t sayin’ you treated me unkind
You could have done better but I don’t mind
You just kinda wasted my precious time
But don’t think twice, it’s all right
(Bob Dylan)

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Pisa here we come

Why is it okay in this country
not to know people like
Gershwin or Kurt Weill,
but if you're unaware of
Loki Schmidt
you'll be tarred and feathered?







I feel disregarded in my transnationalty!




(I bet there are laws on this. Discriminated I am! Ha!)

Fed up





Life is just NOT co-operating!


Monday, December 06, 2004

01/12/04



And why on earth does it look like anyone but me
has forgotten about WORLD AIDS DAY again?!?

Ignorant Fools!

Some more

Oh, how I love tongue twisters!

Betty Botter bought some butter
but she said the butter's bitter.
If I put it in my batter
it will make my batter bitter.
So, she bought some better butter,
better than the bitter butter
and she put it in her batter
and the batter was not bitter.
It was better Betty Botter bought some better butter then.

Stuff you find

"Be who you are and say what you feel,
because those who mind don't matter
and those who matter don't mind."
[Theodor Geisel, Dr. Seuss]


Found it here:
http://www.tiggersbouncinplace.com
What a lovely site...

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Shattered





I AM NOT BORN TO BE A WAITRESS!!!


And whatever happens, I will not ever do it again.

Not even attempting....